My self isolation period has been reset, and I am back to square one. Unfortunately, I had to go on a supply run. While it felt good to go for a drive, get out of the house and feel the breeze in my hair, I remained anxious from point A to B, and back. I should have taken a picture of myself to share, I wore quite the get-up. I had a springy bright orange scarf tied around my hair and head, and a white industrial mask over that, and my glasses over that. I was very nervous. I attempted to avoid this outing, and all couriers for grocery delivery were overwhelmed and unavailable. My face felt hot in the mask; my arms were covered in a white knit sweater I had under my red coat. I took deep breaths to calm myself before exiting my vehicle. I watched people abiding by the rules, and distancing themselves, following the arrows, waiting to enter an aisle, and respecting the space of others. But in the same moments, I had an unruly teenager brush up against me, I watched people trying to enter aisles backwards, and individuals become disgruntled from waiting in line, all to get liquor! I felt overwhelmed, and quite impulsive, I spent more money than I should have, in hopes that I don’t have to face any of that again anytime soon. I bought fruit and wine, cheese, brioche, condiments – you name it! My cashier explained to me that he had just returned from a seizure clinic, and that is why he had a mask on. He felt the need to convey to each person why he wore a mask. He has at-risk family members at home, so he is protecting them, but he is also protecting the public by wearing a mask. I spotted two women working on merchandising in the aisles, and they seemed rather concerned if any public member would approach the aisle they were in. It all…rather broke my heart. It’s so bloody depressing to see the media, and the realness of this virus and its impact around the globe. We all have watched I am Legend, Children of Men or The Walking Dead, but we never are quite prepared for when our world is faced with that level of chaos…such as now. And it seems to hit you harder when you go out into your community, and notice…the damage. If you’re from a small cove or town, or from a Maritime province of hardworking people, and a whole lot of good – you’ll understand the misery.
Please pray for our front-line workers, and pray for the small town heroes keeping a bit of peace in a time where peace seems nearly impossible. And for goodness sake, please stay home if you are not one of these people, and if it is not essential. I will be relying on my grocery delivery service, and food boxes to avoid going out at all.
I am refraining from going out because I don’t want to be a part of the problem, and I don’t want to put myself or my family at risk. But it goes so much deeper than that.
I am not going out because it is sad to see the streets I grew up on empty. Prior to the pandemic, ten or fifteen cars lined up meant traffic, but now there’s not even one car. I am not going out to see my favourite local businesses dark and closed up – as their owners sit at home stressed about a recession. I am saddened by this, as there’s a spot I live nearby where I’ve seen so many businesses come and go, like a revolving door. And finally, we had some mo-jo, things seemed to be ticking at the right pace, for the city, the community and its people and the business owners – and then this happened. I am not going out because I’ll see the long, undefined line of people lined up to get their alcohol fix. I am a Maritimer, I know we love our drink. But it’s sad, because it reminds me of all the mental health issues that are worsening or developing during this time. I think of my students I work with, and I just pray they are okay. I see the street I drive down for a while to get to my school, and that makes me miss routine, work, and the children. COVID-19 will impact each place different, and it doesn’t make one force of impact any worse than another. But just as it hits an overpopulated, polluted city hard, it’s hitting my beloved little peninsula just as hard. While it’s a sad time for everyone, I feel an extra sadness in my heart for Atlantic Canadians right now because everything in me is rooted in my Maritime blood.
So, that was a rather long way of explaining why I am staying home, but I hope it’s suffice. And I just ask that you all working from home like myself, or those of you laid off work adhere to the isolation recommendations/rules.
On a brighter note, I wanted to recommend some excellent films I’ve been watching the last couple weeks – and films that have brought me a great deal of laughter and/or comfort.
First up is, An Uncommon Grace. This is a Super Channel/Heart & Home feature, and it is a wholesome, romantic, interesting Amish film that explores Amish-English relations. It presents realistic views of Amish culture, and Amish-English dealings, and it has a great ending!
Love on Iceland is my next recommendation. If you know me well, you will know of my great admiration for Iceland, the gorgeous island it is and the people that inhabit it. I love Icelandic horses, they are a stunning breed and good listeners. My horse I rode in Iceland, Glampi, might have set the bar quite high because he was super cute, and extremely cooperative. My fascination with Icelandic culture has for sure deepened within my travels; I’ve come to learn facts about Iceland that make it quite appealing to me, such as they have more writers per capita than any other place; literacy and books continue to be a large part of Icelandic life! This movie is captivating for someone like myself that is into all things Iceland, however it does also play out a very romantic plot – it’s worth a try!
Lastly, I highly recommend a movie called The Healer, it is superb! I may be a bit biased, and overly excitable about this film because guess what?! It was filmed in Nova Scotia, Lunenberg to be exact! Being from the East Coast, there is no word to describe how awesome it is to watch a movie knowing it was made here. And it’s even cooler to know Jo Karev/Wilson from Grey’s walked the streets I have! British/American actress Camillia Luddington came to Nova Scotia to make this excellent film, and plays a veterinarian. I would greatly spoil the movie if I said even one thing about this funny, and heart-warming film, so you just have to find it on Canadian Netflix or elsewhere and watch it yourself! Enjoy!
Please feel free to share movies and television programs that have been comforting you during this time, be well and stay safe!
Written and published Thursday, April 09, 2020.